Tuesday, 29 June 2010

You Know You're A Mother When

Sometimes when I think about it, I couldn't believe that I am a mother. It has been 6 years already! I feel that (yeah in my mind) I am still a small child, knowing that I have a child of my own. Once in a while being an adult can be fun when you're acting like a child.
I don't feel you can TRULY understand the absolute meaning of the phrase until you become a mother yourself. I'd love to share some of these times with you as I am sure that if you are a mother, or a parent in general, that you will be nodding your head to at least a few "you know when's..." on my list hehe..

You went through hours of painful labour and forget the pain; the very moment you see your child.

You don't mind if you wear the same or old clothes again; and you get your child new ones.. on every sale. Instead of wanting to buy yourself something, you ended up at children's department.

You went to the grocery store alone and consider that as your 'me' time.

You hide in the bathroom to be alone.. sometimes.

You don't feel hungry when you saw your child eat double meal at one time.

You stayed up at night when your child couldn't sleep because of fever, and still go to work the next day with panda eyes!

You fell sick and worry that no one can take care of the children like you do. And still you get out of bed, make sure they're ok!

You kept cleaning the house, pick up toys even when the kids are around.

You always prepared things like extra clothes, extra shoe, huge bag with all your kids stuff inside whenever you're going out.

You went to the washroom with your child (below 7). Kept asking if they are still outside the door. Haha..

You can't seem to stop yourself from kissing your child's head hundred times a day, pat their bum, and stroke their cheek. You'll stop until.. "Mom, you're kissing me in front of everyone."

You're working from home sitting in front of the computer, when your child wants to sit with you to play Playhouse Disney and Ben 10 online games.

You feel proud every time someone makes a comment on how adorable your child is.

You are so exhausted from work, but still you are willing to hear how your child's day at school.

You are a mother, friend, teacher, laundry lady, housekeeper, chef, referee, driver to your child and add the 'secretary' to your hubby. All the time. You're working 365 days.

You complaint from time to time, but still enjoying every moment of motherhood!

Sunday, 27 June 2010

World Cup 2010 - Germany vs England

I am not a die hard fan of football, but I love to watch the game sometimes. Where actually there's no good movie on TV. Some of you might say, women watched football or soccer because of the good looking guys. Oh yes!! I admit it. I like to see Kaka, Ronaldo, Beckham, Lampard.. and the list goes on. And they too have very good skills and talented. With talent and good looks, they sure are well known football player.

I had my time long time ago waking up middle of the night watching 22 men running after 1 ball.

My favourite team is Germany. Why? Their jersey is nice hehe.. and there's Klose. He's not that good looking, but it's just ok. Eh sure he's got skills too ya know.

This is the one I had, and because of the jersey is big.. I gave it to my big man. Suits him nicely. And no Germany is not his favourite team, it's England. He's also not a die hard fan, he watched and read the news from time to time. Thank God! I don't have to sleep alone at night.

Tonight, Germany will face England (round of 16th). The game will start at 10.00AM EDT. Malaysian time it would be 10PM. I maybe watching it for few minutes. Don't want to fall asleep in the office. So far they've won 2 out of their 3 first round games. Deutschland please win!! They've won the World Cup in 1954, 1974 and 1990. 2010?? We shall see.

"There's only one posibility: win, draw or loose." Franz Beckenbauer

"To any young kid who wants to be a footballer, I would simply say: Have fun playing football and enjoy the team - spirit. That's the right attitude; that will bring you pleasure and fulfillment in football. A baker cannot live on bread he made yesterday, and a footballer cannot live on his last game. It's about the here and now." Jurgen Klinsmann

From Friends to Lovers

Discovering that a friend is actually a lover as well. This poem was the first one I dedicated to my love. It described us very well. I find it very sweet and nice. I've taken this from 100-poems.com. The poem was created by Joe Vieira. It was written for a friend he had known for 12 years. They both discovered that they had the same feelings for each other all those years but kept themselves. They never hinting to the other how much they really cared and wanted each other so much.

Sometimes I feel sad and sometimes I feel blue
but whenever I see you, I'm as happy as can be
for you bring a smile upon my face
and a feeling of joy within my heart
you're like my sunshine in the morning
and my stars that glow at night
you're like the waves in the ocean
the cool breeze in the wind
like the call of the birds in the morning dew
like the sounds of beauty in the night
you see all of these things are of beauty and love
that's how I feel whenever you are near
for it was the passion and desire from both of us
that opened up the world for our eyes to see
for our love of each other will grow and grow
and our needs and desires will be more everyday
for a friend you once were and will always be
has turned into love as it should have been
so I want you to know as a friend and lover
that in my heart and arms you'll always stay
for our love for each other will never fade.
Image credit to Google

Friday, 25 June 2010

29 Life Lessons Learned by Age 29

Image credit to Google

I've made a list of life lessons I have learned by the age of 29. Old?? So not old ok! I'm still young at the heart. Yeah, sayang I know you'll be reading this statement soon.

Nobody knows ourselves better than we do. Most of us needs sometime alone to 'discover ourselves'. We learned everyday throughout the life. There's not even a day we stop learning, be it good or bad experience. It taught us there are still hope and it's not the end of everything when things didn't go the way we want it to be. The happy moments, will always be kept forever.

  1. When there's no one listening, no one to depend on, no one to be there for you.. always remember GOD is always there. All you have to do is pray. GOD will always be the best option in any situation.
  2. Problems don't just disappear. Face it, deal with it. It will not go away with the blink of your eye.
  3. Be responsible. No one will ever be responsible for your actions than you. Take full responsibility even when the outcome is negative.
  4. Money could not buy happiness. But if you have money, and can buy lots of things and save for your future.. wouldn't it make you happy?
  5. Go on vacation twice a year. Free yourself from work. Hard work never killed people, but don't take the chance.
  6. Love yourself first, before you love people around you.
  7. Bad things do happen to good people. The difference is how it was handled.
  8. Just because someone doesn't show you the way you love them like you do or like you want them to, that doesn't mean they don't love you.
  9. Before you judge people without knowing them, get to know them. Then you decide. Some people might look nice but they aren't, some might look they can't be trusted, but they actually can.
  10. Love your children, they are our future. Teach them manners, good things, provide them with education. How children behave shows who their parents are.
  11. Be good to others if you want them to be good to you. Remember, what goes around comes around. What you give, either good or bad, you'll get back.
  12. Stay far away from love affair, love triangle relationship, married woman or man, or someone's lover. There's more heartbreak and pain than happiness. Promises are usually made to be broken.
  13. We always have a choice.
  14. Harbouring regrets is a tiresome way to live and a waste of our short life span. Since many of our regrets cannot be reversed, we should leave them where they belong, in the past and turn our attention to the lessons we‘ve learned and use them to make positive changes in our lives today.
  15. Stop trying to impress people by being someone you're not. In the end, you'll lose yourself.
  16. One thing for sure I learned from my child is how much PATIENCE I have.
  17. When someone says something unkind or untrue, simply consider the source and let it go.
  18. Some people are not stupid as we might think. They just don't know how  to use their skills and knowledge.
  19. Don't ever take things for granted. Especially people you care and love.
  20. People will try to control you if you let them. It's your life, you take control.
  21. The good old days will never return, no matter how hard we wish. Instead, we can recall, regain and recapture the good feelings, the simplicity and the hopefulness and make them a part of our todays.
  22. Regardless how lost and alone you feel you are not. If you are willing to cut short the pity-party, you can always find a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, a hand to hold and a heart to care.
  23. Get good enough sleep. Your health is indeed your life.
  24. The biggest mistake you can make is doing nothing because you’re too scared to make a mistake. So don’t hesitate – don’t doubt yourself. In life, it’s rarely about getting a chance; it’s about taking a chance.
  25. People especially men are not mind readers. Tell them what you're thinking and what you want.
  26. Live below your means. Live a comfortable life, not a wasteful one. Do not spend to impress others. Do not live life trying to fool yourself into thinking wealth is measured in material objects. Manage your money wisely so your money does not manage you. Always live well below your means.
  27. Educate your life until the day you die.
  28. Spend as much time as possible with the one you love. You never know when it will be the last time.
  29. Build a comfortable, loving household. Home is where the heart is. Your home should be comfortable and lined with love. It should be a place that brings the whole family together.

Monday, 21 June 2010

Small Man and 'Lil Brother'

As you all know I have a son.. 6 year old cute smart boy whom I love so much with all my heart. This is about him and how he wants a little baby brother so bad. The story begins.

My big man went to Alor Setar and Langkawi last week with his family. Yes, he went for a holiday WITHOUT ME! Can you feel the stressed with the caps lock?? Haha.. He took lots of pictures and there's one picture where he is holding his cousin, Umar. He's adorable isn't he? Not the one who's smiling cheekily, that's his brother.

He asked me to show the picture to my small man, and said daddy has a baby brother. I showed him and he cried!

At first I thought he was jealous. To my, our surprised he said why did daddy has the baby brother and not him? Errrrr... He asked me if he could have the baby brother on Saturday, because we had promised to bring him out on that day. I asked him why he cried, is he mad at daddy? He said no. He wants the brother! Oh brother. Both of us could not stop laughing. I kept asking, now what do we do? He kept saying he wanted a baby brother just like the one my big man was holding in the picture. Small, cute and bald.

We were texting each other about his reaction, and I told him he cannot have the baby because it was someone's else baby brother, Farah. He cried again. He said, how can she has and he doesn't? Why must he asked things that I can't explain without making up stories.. boo hoo hoo.

So, we told him that next year he can have a baby brother. But, I told him we could not buy anywhere because it will be in mummy's tummy. And, he said.. after that mummy will go to the hospital and deliver the baby right? Pity mummy. Seriously, I don't know where he knew about it, how the baby come out and that sort of thing. I know he will love and take really good care of his baby brother or sister. Oh yes, he don't want a sister, he wants a brother. Maybe soon, he will ask me how the baby get inside mummy's tummy. I must be prepared.

Things Happen.. With The Reason Of Their Own

Sometimes I don't want to accept whenever bad things happen to me. It's just too painful and stressful and I hate it!! What I'll do is, stop thinking about it and ran away. Yeah, afraid to face it and knowing the outcome would make me miserable and less happy. And, yes I do know some of it gives me a very good lesson and happy ending.

Last Sunday, my uncle (my mother's eldest brother) passed away. He had cancer. Last time I saw him was on my sister's wedding. He is a good uncle, very calm and quite. He left his wife and 4 boys. He got a grandson too, which was the first time I met. Oh that boy is so chubby! And SHY!! When a death happened to the family, it is something or a message to remind us.. everything that alive will die. The difference was how it happens to you and how people around you accept it. My brother passed away when he was 21, that was 6 years ago. He's still young! He died in a motor-lorry accident.. it happened when he was on his way back from work. May he rest in peace and stand among the good people.

On that day itself, my big man home theater blew up. This is the second time it happened. Frustrating! That thing is not even 3 years (I think so). If he wants to get a new one, it might have to wait until next year. Sorry dear.

And.. after that.. my iphone mic broken!! People not able to hear my voice. The other night it was OK! The next day, it's DEAD!! Oh my.. what a day. All happened at once, just not to me, my big man and my family. I know, things happen.. with the reason of their own. I just don't know the reason yet and what I get in the end. I hope, it's a good thing.

Thursday, 17 June 2010

One Hundred Days

Yes, I've been counting days. I bet you can see the square box on the top of my blog, the picture with the wedding ring.

Both of us a bit relaxed this 1 month, nothing to buy or rushing here and there. We've got most of you things done half. Need to follow up the progress. Starting from July, need to gather all the address and search few things for the men's gift (hantaran). 2 or 3 more things left. And yes, to pick up my dress end of the month. And to go shopping for the gifts decoration. Also, to fill up the forms. Oh my, suddenly so many things to do in 30 days!

Stay tuned for more updates.

Tuesday, 15 June 2010

Will It Be The Same

It is the most wonderful feeling, knowing you are loved and wanted. I am grateful to have the people I love around me. My son, my family and my future husband. We're going to tie the knot in September this year. Yes, it will be the most happiest day of my life.

Sometimes, out of the a sudden.. I feel left out, not loved and ignored. Yeah you name it, all the negative feelings. Something is not right when actually there's nothing wrong. Being over sensitive is not good, and how I wish I can get rid of it once and for all. Vulnerable? You can say that.

When we are far apart, we missed that person dearly. We kept calling and texting with each other. We hoped that they will come back soon. But, do we still have the same feeling.. when we started to live together? I mean, will the love grow stronger, will there be spark in the relationship? Will it be exciting enough until the end of our lives? Of course, we are happy to see and be with each other. But, I'm talking about feelings. The need of each other. Not the need of our partner to do our house chores and everything. The love need feeling. I hope I put it in a correct way hehe..

Will there be a day, you feel that you've fallen in love again with your other half? Will you still hold each other's hand when you cross the road? Will you still go crazy over him/her even you have 5 kids?

Yes, it's true we don't know what our future have for us. The best we can do is to appreciate what we have before it's gone. Don't think too much of what might happen. Time and life are too precious to be wasted thinking, just enjoy each moment until your last breath.

"The most wonderful of all things in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a growing depth, beauty and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing; it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of divine accident, and the most wonderful of all things in life."

--Sir Hugh Walpole

Sunday, 13 June 2010

Brassap Bro Yo Yo!

My small man, he's 6 years old and sometimes I don't quite follow what he's trying to say. He speaks English, but in a kids way of course hehe.. He do mixed it with some Malay. Sometimes, it surprised me how he understands English more than Malay.

The other day, when I was having my dinner after came back to work.. he started to say Brassap bro. I was thinking, it supposed to be 'What's up bro' right? So I told him, it should be What's up Bro. But he kept saying brassap bro. I asked if he knew what is the meaning of it, and he said it's a joke mama. LOL! And he continued it with Brassap bro yo yo! He told me it sound much better with Brassap Bro hehe... Oh well, up to you my son. As long as it's not a swear or cursing or bad words, I'm OK with it.

And as usual, my big man would copycat what's the small man have said. Oh brother!

Tuesday, 8 June 2010


I have twitter now.. wohooo!! Seriously, I don't know what's best about it so far. All I know, my friends don't have the link and I can update everything that they wouldn't know (errr I guess).

I will enjoy it until I'm bored and if my friends knows about it.. hehe


Saturday, 5 June 2010

Cinderella for A Day

Cinderella.. Who doesn't know her right? One of my favorite A character from the famous Walt Disney Princess. Although she's not a princess, but she married to a prince after that and lived happily ever after. Yeah fairy tale.

So at this entry, I bukan nak cakap pasal cerita Cinderella tu hehe.. Cinderella tu kan rajin orangnya, mengemas dan selalu kena buli dengan mak tiri and 2 orang kakak tiri dia. Eh no no.. I tak ada mak tiri or kakak tiri ok! Just that today, I've done the cleaning, rearranging, vacuuming from 10am to 5pm. Short break for 1 hour sebab kena teman my mom pergi kenduri kahwin jiran. Musim orang kahwin dah bermula hehe..

My small man pun rajin juga tolong mama dia mengemas. Alhamdulillah, bila datang mood rajin dia, senang hati mama dia kannn.. Cuma awal pagi ada buat sikit perangai lah juga kan.. Dah kena 'ceramah' dengan mama. Today, bilik my younger sister pun I terjah juga. Habuk tak usah cakap lah kan, semua tempat! Entah macam mana dia duduk dalam bilik tu pun tak tahu. Baru buat kerja sikit dah bersin sampai berhingus. Nasib baik lah my mood today ter'over' rajin dengan bilik dia sekali I buat. Mulut I pun sama bergerak lah kan arah itu ini. Haihh.. orang perempuan bilik macam kapal Black Pearl tu. Nasib baik tak ada Davey Jones, yang ada cuma Mr Cockroach and Mr Red Ant.

Itu kira my workout for the day juga, berpeluh sakan, turun naik tangga lagi. Sampai sakit-sakit pinggang. Ini lah hasilnya bila dah kemas and susun. Although tak secantik susunan Eric Leong dalam Deko Bersama Eric tu, it looks good to me hehe.. Soon, bila I.. eh we ada rumah sendiri.. I jemput Eric Leong untuk deco, bagi cantik!!

Sibuk dia nak beraksi dengan baby bear.. Penuh bantal

Tuesday, 1 June 2010

My Small Man Sports Day

On 30th May, Sunday was my small man's sports day. Kena bangun awal pukul 6.30pg hari Ahad!! Ughh, memang mama sangat tak rajin. Small man pun bangun agak slow mo hari tu hik hik.. Dengan cuaca redup, sejuk mana tak lena tidur kan.
Start 7.30 tapi we reached there 10 minutes late. Orang pun tak ada ramai sangat. This year small man still rumah kuning - Laksamana. And, I have been chosen again as volunteer. Haa caner tu, terpilih sebagai volunteer? Tapi this year tak susah, jaga budak-budak je. Hehe.. but actually tak jaga pun. Cikgu-cikgu yang jaga je pun kan. Memang tak boleh nak control lah budak-budak bila lari ke sana ke mari. Small man alhamdulillah mau juga dengar kata, tapi bila nampak kawan main kejar-kejar, sepak terajang dia pun sama naik. Haihhh.. boys!

Small man tak banyak masuk acara, maybe sebab this year tak banyak acara sukan jadi kena sama rata bagi acara dengan budak-budak lain. Ada satu acara tendang bola, boleh tak masuk gol. Adeh la!! My big man cakap tak macho la. Nanti daddy ajar how to kick the ball.

My big man sampai ngam-ngam event dah habis. Rumah kuning - Laksamana champion like last year.. Hoooo yeahhh!!! That's my boy. Masa tu pula, hamper yang small man menang di ambil orang. Tak tahu lah siapa yang terambil. Lepas tu apa lagi, meraung lah dia kan. Pity my small man. I nak bagi hamper yang I dapat as volunteer tu dia tak nak, dia nak yang dia dapat juga. Lepas tu grandpa pujuk dia dengan bagi duit beli KFC or McD with daddy. Senyap lah sekejap kan, hopefully dia lupa lah after that. Sampai rumah, cikgu dia datang and bagi hamper. I rasa ada yang lebih kot cikgu dia bagi. Oh well, janji my small man tak meraung dah kan.
Until we meet again next year.