Tuesday, 26 June 2012

Cranky Baby, Cranky Mama

My baby girl is one month old now. I quoted this from babycentre.com: "Newborn babies are hard work. Being the parent of a newborn who cries a lot even harder work."
Parents out there especially mothers know what I mean. Not enough sleep during night and have to breastfeed the little one with one eye open is one hard thing to do. Yeah you can guess I once fell asleep while feeding her.
My baby girl usually sleeps during day. The issue here is, she cries when we want to put her to sleep during night but that doesn't happen during day time. She can sleep by herself after I fed her. She even fell asleep while I fed her sometimes! I am OK if she wakes up and decided .. 'Hey mama, wake up and let's play rocking-chair'. But what makes me stressed is she cried instead.
Not only babies can go cranky, mothers too. Especially when you don't get enough sleep and fatigue. There are times I feel like I want to scream so loud. I tried my very best not to shout at kiddo and Mr. Fruitheart over small things. Oh you don't know how I CONTROL it.
I do not need to be reminded of babies sleep during day time and awake during night time. I do not need to be told to check on her diapers, stomach ache, whether she is cold or hot, comfy, need cuddling, need to be hold and everything. I do read the tips and articles from babycentre and advice from my parents and in laws. But when your baby starts to cry after everything is checked, you just don't know what else they want.
I just need to be reminded, there's nothing wrong with my baby and it is OK for her to cry and not BLAMING myself. I know this crying is a phase and it will soon pass. You just hang on there Fara!
P/S: I love you baby girl.

Monday, 18 June 2012

2012: Happy Father's Day

I totally forgot yesterday was Father's Day. So here's a big shout out to all fathers, daddies, papas, grandpas, atuk, appa, abi, abah, ayah out there. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

I know I had asked when is this year's Father's Day. 17th June 2012! The first person I wish was my father. I was at my parents house yesterday due to some emergency issue. While I was talking to my youngest sister then she mentioned about father's day.

Pity Mr. Fruitheart, I didn't wish him first. He is a father too! Sorry honey, blame my after-pregnancy-brain issue. Muahaha.. No we didn't celebrate. No eating out, no cakes, nothing. Oh well, I didn't have my mother's day celebration too. Maybe next year we will celebrate.

Image credit to alegoo.com

Monday, 11 June 2012

Happy 8th Birthday Adzreza Syahmie

My eldest son, the only son.. Adzreza Syahmie turned eight on 27th May last month. Since I am still on confinement and on recovery mode, I only updated the entry about it today.
Like every year kiddo would want a cake. Last year it was BR ice cream cake. This year, kiddo wanted to have an ANGRY BIRD cake. He saw one at AEON Wangsa Maju but I am not sure about the taste. He might not like it (I know I don't). I ordered from my friend's wife, since she is doing this pastry as part time. Kiddo had also requested the cake on 27th May and a cupcake to be given to his friends on 11th June when school starts. It was like having a simple treat for his friends. I liked the idea and I didn't know he could came out with one. Clever boy!
A little bit disappointing because the cake was supposed to be delivered on 27th, but my friend wrongly set the date to be on 28th :( Takkan lah I tak ingat my own son's birthday kan? So, on 28th during dinner time we sang again and cut the cake. So sorry for kiddo, he didn't have the proper celebration.
And again today, I asked for 50 cupcakes but I got only 25 instead. Double my frustration. *sigh* Oh well, what's done is done.
I will make sure kiddo will have a proper celebration next year. Even if he has to share the celebration with her baby sister Arissa and his mother, I will make sure I fulfill his wish. After all, he is a good boy. Ala, nakal tu biasa lah. Every kid has their naughty attitude, right? But hey, once a year celebration. Maybe he could have few friends to celebrate with him or celebrate it somewhere. McDonalds maybe. *wink*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADZREZA SYAHMIE! Thank you for being a good kiddo and mama loves you so much.

An Angry Bird
P/S: It was a nice cake. Nasib baik. Don't have the cupcake pictures, since it went straight to his nursery this morning. Let's hope it taste good as well.

Nur Leia Arissa

Finally I have the time to sit in front of the laptop.
Yes, finally my little princess was born on 22nd May 2012 at 11.04am. We named her Nur Leia Arissa. She is very healthy, 3.4KG. I never thought that she would weight that much, because doc said it could be 3KG only. Oh tipah tertipu!
Kiddo was only 2.75KG when he was delivered. I didn't expect her little sister would be more than 3KG. I went for antenatal check up as usual on that day, and the doc asked if he can check whether I am dilated or not. He said 2cm. Uh oh! Sweating, nervous, panicked, freaked out.. you name it. Mixed feelings. Haha.. Yeah.. I know I had given birth before, but hey that was eight years ago! Mesti lah takut.
But I don't have the sign yet. No water broke, no contractions. But, the night before my tummy really hurt. And I thought it was labour pain. Maybe it was labour pain, my whole tummy hurts and I remember doc said it was one of the sign. After a while it gone. So I continue sleep. Hehe.
I was admitted soon after the CTG scan. Surprised when doc told me I had frequent contraction like every 2-3 minutes. But.. but.. no pain. Lucky me the nurse said. Tak semestinya sakit, dia cakap. Ooooo..
So, there I was in labour room waiting for the right time. Minute after minute, hour after hour. Until late evening, there was no sign. It is still 2cm. Hate it when they have to check how many cm opened. :( Doc said he has to induced me tomorrow morning and expect I will deliver the baby soon after that. Uwaaa.. takut!

OK, cut it short. I was induced the next morning. The nurse had to cucuk tangan untuk masukkan air tu dua kali. Bengkak! Grr. Then around 9.40am, doc came and checked it was 3-4cm. So he broke my water. Fuh!
The funny part was, I was in pain.. yes contraction. Tapi boleh tahan lagi. I told Mr. Fruitheart, 'Your fault'.. 'Tak mau beranak dah.' He smiled. Huh! At one time, I cannot tahan already and asked for pain killer. Nah ahh ahh.. that doesn't help at all. After that, I can't hold it anymore and I think the baby is ready to come out. I had to wait for the doc to arrived, oh the pain is unbearable. Mr. Fruitheart hold the mask on my face, oh damn I don't remember what they called it. But it does ease the pain a bit. Breath in breath out. I am almost at the finish line, after five pushes the baby popped out.

It is true what they said. Once you hold and see your baby, all the pain gone. Gone with the wind. The nurse put the baby on top of me, first skin-to-skin. Oh she is so beautiful. Thank you Allah, I made it!
P/S: Thank you my beloved hubby for waiting beside me and went through the childbirth process from start to the end. I know it takes a lot of courage to be there with your wife, support her and really have patience with her. Thank you so much sayang.