Thursday, 31 October 2013

Favourite Quote of The Week #44

The most important thing she’d learned over the years was that there was no way to be a perfect mother and a million ways to be a good one. ~~Jill Churchill

Thursday, 24 October 2013

Favourite Quote of The Week #43

Never continue in a job you don’t enjoy. If you’re happy in what you’re doing, you’ll like yourself, you’ll have inner peace.
~~ Johnny Carson

Wednesday, 23 October 2013

Open Letter to My Little Baby Girl

Dear baby,

Hello my precious! Ahh.. as always I don't know where to start. Looks like I have a lot to say this time. Or maybe not.

According to the babybump and my pregnancy calendar, you're 34 weeks old. Another 38 more days to go until I see you face to face. Are you excited to see mummy?

Let me tell you that you already have a big brother and sister. So you going to be the last. Bongsu! Yeah, I've told your daddy I am tired and production need to stop. Taking care of four people is sure one hard job and tiring. Plus, you know mummy has to work to help daddy support our family. I really hope and pray that someday your daddy will become a CEO of his own company so mummy can be tai tai, full time house wife with 2 helper and a driver. Oh yes, it's going to be so much fun.. FOR ME!

During my last checkup, your weight is 2.5KG. My weight is 63! Before I forget, I apologise for not giving much attention to you during my pregnancy this time. I hardly massage my tummy, like I did with your sister. But you need to know that no matter what I love so much with all my heart.

Being pregnant to you, I love to eat a lot of western cuisine. Spaghetti, nachos, mashed potato and there's one time I feel like eating Burrito and tortilla. No baby, we do not have any Mexican blood in our family. And of course daddy went all out looking for it. Although it doesn't came from Mexico, at least I've tasted it.

Oh and not forgetting the back ache, groin pains, walks like penguin and huge like a bear.. yes that's what mama had gone through with all 3 pregnancies. I'll show you the stretch mark you and your siblings left me.

And one more thing baby, could you please help mummy to move your head down? If not I would need to go for a c-section to get you out. And I don't want that to happen because I wish for a normal delivery. Pretty please baby? I know you can do this for mummy.

I'll write again soon. I love you so much my little sweet baby.


Thursday, 17 October 2013

Favourite Quote of The Week #42

If you're angry at a loved one, hug that person. And mean it. You may not want to hug - which is all the more reason to do so. It's hard to stay angry when someone shows they love you, and that's precisely what happens when we hug each other.
~~ Walter Anderson, The Confidence Course, 1997

Thursday, 10 October 2013

Sometimes You Just Can't Say No.. Pancake

I love my children. So much. My eldest who is 9 years old.. well.. sometimes he would love to test my patience towards him. Which child doesn't right?

Few days ago, he had asked me to make him some pancakes for breakfast. I did once few months back. I woke up at 5am! But now it is not that easy for me to wake up at 5am and prepare breakfast. I am still sleepy, tired and it is hard for me to wake up from bed. It took me almost 10 minutes to finally stand up. I am so heavy.

Today morning, I was in the kitchen washing baby girl's bottle and he came along with his little sister. I saw him opened the cupboard and took out the flour and milk. He looked at me and said, 'Mama, I help you make pancake OK?'


Mother and son enjoying pancakes
Image credit to

I smile and said OK. He is the happy child again.

P/S: Trying not to disappoint my children. After all, it was something easy he asked me to do.

Favourite Quote of The Week #41

“You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.”
~~ Joel Osteen, Your Best Life Now: 7 Steps to Living at Your Full Potential

Tuesday, 8 October 2013

As A Mother.. I am Sad

Yesterday I read about the six siblings who were left behind all by themselves in their house by their own parents. The eldest is 9 years old and youngest is 7 months.

How can a mother be so cruel to their own children? Leaving them all alone, nothing to eat and worse leaving a 7 month old baby that knows nothing! I feel so sad reading the news. You have issues with your partner and your children have to pay the price? Crazy and sickening!

If you don't want them, don't know how to care of your own children and feel they are just a burden for you, give them to someone else who wants a child so bad. There are people out there who have tried so hard and tried for so many years to have a baby but not successful. I am pretty sure they are willing to adopt your children.

I am a mother myself. I know how hard it is to get pregnant and being pregnant. I know how painful it is during delivery time. And later, how hard it is to raise a child. Nothing is easy in this world.

I hope all of them will be OK and it is good to know that some of their neighbours are there to help looking after the children.

Here is the link if you want to read further: Enam Beradik Kelaparan Ditinggal Ibu Bapa, Paling Bongsu ‘Tinggal Nyawa Ikan’

P/S: A lot of news about babies and children lately.. rape, abuse, abandoned and the list goes on. What's wrong with some people?? :(

Monday, 7 October 2013

So-Called Romantic Dinner at Las Vacas

We had our 3rd year anniversary dinner at Las Vacas, Jln. Yap Kwan Seng. I was supposed to upload this entry on the 25th September, but I was so busy with myself and totally forgot about it.
Early morning, I got a smooch (Ewww.. my little sister would reply that for sure) from Mr. Fruitheart. On our way to work, he asked me what would we do? I said let's have dinner. As usual, I am the one who need to choose the place. And 'mana-mana pun boleh' is hard to find he said. Bluek!

I remembered one time Mr. Fruitheart wanted to try out the food at Las Vacas. So we went there and lucky it was near to the office. No need to travel far outside KL. Only to Jln. Yap Kwan Seng.

There were no other customers when we reached Las Vacas. It was early for dinner, at 6. Below were the foods we ordered:

Beef Wraps. Delicious!

It was my first time. I don't remember what I ordered for me and Mr. Fruitheart. I think I ordered wrong dish because it was so-so, OK only. Not something I looked forward to visit next time. Me not the beef-steak person. HEHE. Unike Chilis, everytime we go there I feel excited!

I did read all review about this place, and lots of people love it. It is just not my type of food. However, I would recommend the Beef Wraps, it's delicious!

P/S: Nancos FTW!

One Week With The New Helper

One week has passed. We are OK with the helper so far, except for baby girl who still doesn't like her. She still cry when we handed her over for a bath or changed diaper. She also doesn't want the helper to hold her hands while walking.

The worse part? Baby girl pushed her hands away and even pinched her. *sigh* I don't want my daughter to be a bully. We always remind her, told her to be nice.. no hitting, pinching what so ever. She raised her hands and showed us the no no sign. Well, she seems to understand what we told her. But, she's still doing it. My 17 old months baby.

Regarding house chores, hmmm.. so-so. I didn't expect her to do exactly like I do. We have our own way of doing things right? I just told her what to do, how to use the electrical stuff and all. Before she came, we only did our house cleaning on Saturday. And she will need to do the same too.

I told myself, I need to let go some of the house chores. That's what we hired her for. I need to remind myself that I have to let go of the burden a little bit. Take care of myself during this last two months of pregnancy. After baby is born, I can concentrate on my task again.

I feel uneasy living in our own house because we had a maid. A stranger that we just knew and had no relationship with us. Just a feeling Fara, just a feeling.. You'll be OK with it soon.

P/S: Trying to be positive.

Thursday, 3 October 2013

Favourite Quote of The Week #40

Never apologize for being sensitive or emotional. Let this be a sign that you've got a big heart and aren't afraid to let others see it. Showing your emotions is a sign of strength. ~~ Brigitte Nicole

P/S: Sometimes, I do hope that I am not in the category of sensitive and easily cry type of people. :(

Wednesday, 2 October 2013

So I Have a Helper Now, What's Next?

Last Monday Mr. Fruitheart received whatsapp text from his brother saying that there were 4 maids available from the agent. He asked me how? I was 50-50 and asked him back how about him? Knowing him too well, he said we need to decide now and he would want me to say YES or NO. I said.. go ahead.

Tired of people asking, don't you want a maid? Have you found one yet? Who will take care of your children later when both of you went to work? Is nursery safe? Have you really thought about it seriously? The last question is when I replied to them.. I'll quit my job.

We chose the helper aged 35 which the first picture the agent forwarded to Mr. Fruitheart. Chubby lady with experienced working in the Saudi for almost 9 years. She had 3 children of her own and the eldest is 18 years old. She's married at the age of 15. We went to Malacca straight from KL on the same day to settled all registration and permit and so on because Monday is the last day we were supposed to submit before the new rules. I didn't pay attention of the rules though. (That's what happened when you are not doing something whole hearted). Buat endah tak endah, sambil lewa.

First impression, she was OK. Looks friendly. We were hoping baby girl would be OK with her. Today is her second day and NO baby girl doesn't want the helper to hold her. Plus, she had sudden viral fever on Monday evening which made her even cranky and wanted to be with me. Yesterday I've been holding her almost all the time. I hurt my back, hips and pelvis area so bad and I know it's not good for my pregnancy. I hate to see her cry which make me cry along with her. And I feel bad for ignoring my baby inside me. Forgive me baby. :(

Today I went to work with a heavy heart. She cried when Mr. Fruitheart passed her to the helper. She took out her hands and was hoping her daddy would take her back. I wonder.. is there something wrong with the helper? Is she that scary? Is there a ghost inside her? Is she carrying an unseen creature with her?


P/S: I am sad. If a man smoke when they're stress, what about woman? Called my MIL and she told me baby girl was asleep but still cry whenever the helper hold her.